It’s not loneliness that I feel, but more like an alone-ness that grips my heart in curiosity–yet something stronger. Are there any more like me out there? Lord, are there more like-minded and like-hearted people out there with the same vision as me? Do any others, especially in my generation, who have a house of prayer burning on their hearts? Where are those like Anna and Mary of Bethany?
There are those who I am fellowship with, but I long to go deeper into the Lord’s heart. It’s not that I believe that I have some special, secret revelation. But as I read works from the mystics of ancient times, I am convinced that there is a deeper revelatory encounter that can be entered into. And I want to go there.
But right now, I feel so dry and distracted in the place of prayer. My thoughts wander, and the spirit seems so shallow–like I can’t break through to some deeper realm.
Lord, show me the way. Teach me the way to the deepest part of your heart. Amen.